Kelowna Land & Orchard

I attended a field trip with Pip's preschool. It is a popular orchard to tour. It is located above a steep cliff  and beneath it is Mission Creek--full of Kokanee Salmon spawning. And where ever there's an abundance of apples and  fresh salmon you can find bears--and lots of them. The orchard is filled with bears in the morning. We witnessed giant piles of fresh bear poo everywhere and flattened paths the bears have made up the ravine and into the orchard. The most popular apples to grow now are: Galas, Green Delicious, Ambrosia and Fuji.
The pics are of my baby girl Pippi and my niece Artemisia. The little boy is one of their best buddies at school. His mom told me that after the first day back he said, "It was great to see my girls again."

Peter's been away at work all day 7 AM until 10 PM--his centre for Teaching and Learning at UBC is under review so he must play host to the out of town review panel.

It has been the most beautiful weather this week: hot and sunny. I took the girls out grocery shopping tonight and out for supper-tacos.

I've been suffering from stress recently: sleepless nights, feeling depressed--this followed a period of no appetite and super energy. Thus, I remembered the Dalai Lamas wise words, "When in doubt, do nothing." So instead of forcing myself in all directions to get back on a zen path, I took the morning off to meditate, journal and figure it all out. I set Pip up with puzzles and then a Scooby-Doo video.
What materialized was feeling much better. I wrote down what were my problems and what I wanted to do about them. I clarified what activities in life are really important for me to keep active at and which ones I can let go of for now. Lucky for me, Buddhism came up as something I want to remain active at--otherwise the name of this blog would have had to go! It also involves more sports. I always feel like I am at the centre of the universe when I am active outside whether it's hiking, tennis, skiing, skating, swimming, biking. If I'm outdoors and being active I am always happy. It's hard when my family doesn't appreciate the same sports as me. Case in point: Peter refuses to take salsa dancing with me--ever :(  But at least I've got him enjoying biking a bit :) It's strange--I love sports but truthfully I'm not a natural at most of them. Dancing? Yes--I'm a natural. But skiing and skating? Not so much--my legs are really long compared to my body so my centre of gravity is too high.

 I've been having this reoccurring dream for the last six months or so: I am deeply, profoundly unhappy and no one in my family seems to care or get it. They basically ignore me. It always involves me being on the wrong path and hating what I'm doing--drowning in unhappiness and unable to help myself or find help.
I don't quite get it. I don't think it can be literally interpreted because it really isn't the case in my real life.